Dreaming in the Mountains

My New Hampshire house faces the Ossipee Mountains and I find that my dreams are more intense when I am here. Lately I’ve found myself having those rare dreams in which one finds oneself among total strangers all of whom seem to be acquainted with the dreamer. People come and go in a casual manner like relatives in old home movies.

I take comfort from these dreams. "My father’s house has many mansions." Here in New Hampshire, sleeping on the island, I sense my kinship with other dreamers.

Carl Jung believed that it’s possible for all sleeping people to share the same dream. His vision of a "universal unconscious" also worked across time: Jung thought it was possible for people to dream of the past and future. He surmised that all cultures throughout history are connected by means of the universal unconscious.

Jung got some of the impetus for this idea from Jacob Boehme, the 16th century German mystic who wrote a treatise on the invisible but present energies of God entitled "The Signature of All Things". A "signature" is, among other things, the stitching that holds the binding of a book together. Boehme saw that God holds everything together, both visibly and invisibly.

The American poet Kenneth Rexroth wrote a remarkable three part poem called "The Signature of All Things" which you can find in the Collected Poems of Kenneth Rexroth, edited by Sam Hamill and Brad Morrow, and published by Copper Canyon Press.

My dreams by the lake are influenced by the forest and perhaps by my nightly swims. Perhaps the feeling I want to share is best conveyed by these opening lines from Kenneth Rexroth’s poem.

I will go now for my nightly swim.

S.K.

THE SIGNATURE OF ALL THINGS

My head and shoulders, and my book

In the cool shade, and my body

Stretched bathing in the sun, I lie

Reading beside the waterfall–

Boehme’s "Signature of all Things."

Through the deep July day the leaves

Of the laurel, all the colors

Of gold, spin down through the moving

Deep laurel shade all day. They float

On the mirrored sky and forest

For a while, and then, still slowly

Spinning, sink through the crystal deep

Of the pool to its leaf gold floor.

The saint saw the world as streaming

In the electrolysis of love.

I put him by and gaze through shade

Folded into shade of slender

Laurel trunks and leaves filled with sun.

The wren broods in her moss domed nest.

A newt struggles with a white moth

Drowning in the pool.

The hawks scream,

Playing together on the ceiling

Of heaven. The long hours go by.

I think of those who I have loved,

Of all the mountains I have climbed,

Of all the seas I have swum in.

The evil of the world sinks.

My own sin and trouble fall away

Like Christian’s bundle, and I watch

My forty summers fall like falling

Leaves and falling water held

Eternally in summer air.

Dingleberries

This is just too funny not to share. 

Last November we acquired a lovely Golden Retriever, Maggie, who needed a home.  As happy as I am to have this dog in my life, I could be just as happy if we found someone else with whom to share the joy.  (Translated: we also have two Labradors.  Do we really need a third big dog?) Mine_now_2

(The photo above is of Maggie sitting at the water’s edge at Lake Winnipesaukee, the wind blowing through her golden locks.) 

A few months ago I had a conversation with my friend Anne.  She and her husband Clete live in NH and they too own a cottage on Lake Winnipesaukee.  Anne mentioned they were thinking of getting another dog as a playmate to the one they already have but that they were too busy for a puppy right now.  I said "oh, perhaps you’d like to give Maggie a try?"  I was planning a trip to NH so the timing was perfect.

"That’s an idea" she said.  "Let me talk to Clete and get back to you".

Maggie and I drove the 16 hours to NH.  She’s great company so I would have taken her with me anyway.  It’s a good thing because when I got there Anne and I spoke again and she then revealed that "Clete really doesn’t think he wants a Golden Retriever.  They’re wanderers, their coat is too much maintenance and besides, they get dingleberries."

"Dingleberries!" I said with a laugh.  "Dame Maggie NEVER gets dingleberries.  She’s much too much the lady… She’s not a wanderer either.  Really.  She’s a lovely dog."

"OK, I’ll talk to him again"

Relaying this to my husband later that evening he said "Dingleberries!  Clete is a gastroenterologist for God’s sake.  He does colonocopies all day.  He wears a sweatshirt at camp with "colon crusader" written across the back of it.  What’s a dingleberry or two to "The Colon Crusader?"

Anne and Clete decided to give Maggie a try.  I visited Anne for lunch the next day.  I was prepared to leave Maggie with her, which I did.

Maggie, however, was NOT pleased and I knew it.  She did not relish the idea of being the "playmate" to this big, shall I say young, neutered but very amorous German Shepherd.  Jackson, as he is called, would not leave her alone.  I mean, he was all over her.  While it is possible for a neutered male to have his way with a female it wouldn’t be pleasant for her.  Especially for Dame Maggie.  Her solution to the problem was to lie down and not get up – not unless she absolutely had to.

Ever the optimist, and as a former guide dog trainer, I knew that there would be an adjustment period for Maggie and that it could take days.  My hope was that Jackson could learn to "play" with Maggie with out needing to hump her obsessively.  I also knew that the success of this "experiment" would hinge as much on the dog handlers as on the dogs themselves.  How much did they really want this to work?  Neither dog was aggressive.  One was just much "busier" than the other.

Fast Forward -> 24 hours later….

I’m back at my cabin realizing I’m kind of missing Maggie when I get the phone call.

"Connie, Clete really doesn’t think this is going to work out and I
have to say I agree with him.  We want a dog that will play with
Jackson and we can’t get her to move!  I kid you not, she has hardly
moved since you left her!  I can’t get her to move.  The kids can’t get
her to move.  We did finally get her to go outside at one point and then she
started to wander – it was almost as if she was looking for
something – and she wouldn’t come when called.  Clete had to go after her
with a leash.  Honestly, if I didn’t know better I would think there was something wrong with this dog!"

"No problem Anne.  I’ll take her back!"  I knew Dame Maggie was not
happy.  I knew she could/would adjust given the time.  But I also knew
that Maggie wasn’t the kind of dog they were looking for.  Maggie is my
kind of dog.  Quiet.  Gentle.  Affectionate.  Sweet.  Well mannered.  And not at all horny.

I knew then that she is my dog now and she is meant to be my dog.

Oh but wait!  There’s more to the dingleberry story…

Continue reading “Dingleberries”

Uh Oh!

Alright. Mea Culpa. I have committed the age-old blunder of dull husbandry, namely I have asserted that I am privileged to be able to go alone to the woods for the purpose of writing. I knew (ever so dimly) that I was making a mistake when I typed that sticky little phrase.

I am now doomed. "Why don’t I just marry my dog?" writes one commentator. Yes, I appear to have been exulting about my Hemingway-esque "men without women" position here in the woods.

It does no good of course to try to extricate myself from this grievous blunder by means of mere rhetoric. There is no hope for me. If I told my readers that I fervently wish that my wife was able to be here with me, well, you know, as they like to say in Arkansas: "That dog won’t hunt."

So okay. We’re back to the dog thing. "The Queen" wants to know why I don’t just marry the dog.

The real answer of course is that if I married the dog then I would have to wear the dog’s harness. This should be fairly evident to any amateur student of marriage, no matter what kind of matrimonial view that student might hold. Everyone knows that "the one who is the husband" is "the one who wears the harness" and there’s a considerable amount of literature on this subject. I recommend Honore de Balzac’s famous "Manual of Marriage" but you could consult more contemporary sources if you like.

There’s only one harnessed creature in our nuclear family and it’s the dog. Things are going to stay that way.

As for protestations that I’d like to have Connie here with me, consider this: I bought the cottage and the wind surfer that’s sitting under the house solely for the mutual enjoyment of man and wife. Oh, but with teenagers at home it’s been ever so difficult for us to actually be here at the same time.

And as for the teenagers, who are lovely people, well they don’t really like to come here because "there’s nothing to do" which is of course the point of going to the woods in the first place.

And as for me: I know I’ll never get out from under the gravity of my flip and uncomprehending but mostly iddy biddy slip because as everyone knows, there are no iddy biddy slips in the game of matrimonial Scrabble.

I’m doomed alright.

"I will NOT wear that harness!"

SK

Too Hot to Handle?

Taken from Steve’s last post:

"I have the additional privilege of being able to come here with just my
guide dog for company and I get to write and my dog gets to paint–the
way dogs do when they have the time."

"Ouch" I say.  Hmmmmm.
Perhaps he should think about rephrasing that?  Blue GirlJennifer?
What do you think?  Georgia…where are you Georgia?  Oh, and I wonder what TheQueen would have to say if her husband had said this?

It hasn’t happened very often in the past seven years but every now and then Steve and I get to rendezvous up there on Lake Winnipesaukee.  The idea is that once we have an empty nest (soon!) then perhaps this will happen more often.  Unless, of course, I’m intruding on the man and his dog bonding thing going on. 

Let’s see, the last time we were up there together was in 2005…

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Come to think of it – that was the last time that MY bathing suit burst into flames…Ellen, I thought it was just me!

~ Connie

Ubi Sunt?

Some years ago I was privileged to meet a trans-gendered acrobat who made her living by performing in a side-show at Coney Island. She performed as "the bearded lady" and her act involved riding a unicycle and talking rather directly to her audience. "Whatsa matter? Never seen a bearded lady before? Well, it’s like Toyota: You asked for it, you got it!" And she would wheel back and forth astride her unicycle, skirts ballooning, her long black hair and full beard glinting because, after all, one uses a good conditioner for the sake of showbiz.

I have lost touch with her and I regret this fact. I am just old enough now to have entered that stage of life wherein one can say without affectation: Where are they now?" (I prefer the Latin "ubi sunt" because it’s easier to say under your breath while you’re trying to replace a washer on the well pump.)

Ubi sunt? Where, I wonder, will my Coney Island friend go, now that the amusement park is closing so that the entire area can be Disney-fied. "Ubi omnia sunt?" Where will all of the different people go?

My friend’s "act" was a parody of the old fashioned carnival sideshow and the shabby acreage of Coney Island was exactly the right area for putting on that kind of show.

I worry about the Disneyfication of our nation’s liminal spaces. One can easily forget that parody as an art form requires real ground to walk upon. The current slogan of the National Endowment for the Arts is "a great nation deserves great art" and this is true, but the deeper truth is that "a great nation deserves great irreverent art" and we should all remember that. Mark Twain, Walt Whitman, Jackson Pollock, and Judy Chicago are all "not quite ready for Disney" and I fear the evident erosion of free public space where the free thinkers can think.

This has been on my mind lately because I’m in New Hampshire at my summer cabin on Lake Winnipesaukee. I am a lucky guy to have such a cabin. It’s on an island and I have the additional privilege of being able to come here with just my guide dog for company and I get to write and my dog gets to paint–the way dogs do when they have the time.

My cabin faces north and if I could see I could espy the vacation mansion of Mitt Romney who as you know is currently a candidate for the Presidency of the United States.

The old, blue collar shoreline of my beloved New Hampshire lake has been taken over in the past decade by big spending folk who rip down the trees and build pasteboard immensities where there used to be granite boulders and birch trees.

In turn, public space has changed hereabouts. The little town where you could talk to the locals about the virtues of dynamite vs. shoveling when building an outhouse has become a place where one overhears people saying things like: "Let’s fetch this charming little moose-lamp for Grand-mama ,"and the men stand around and talk about the torque of their respective cigarette boats.

And so I find myself thinking about my friend from Coney Island as I blindly replace a nut on my well pump.

I wish for more bearded ladies who ride unicycles and who call the quotidian fashions of her audience into supreme question.

I worry that we’re losing more and more public unicycle space all the time.

By God, America is stuffed with vainglorious and wholly artificial public squares. Even I can see it, and I don’t see so good.

Ubi sunt?"

SK

There he is! Ross, wave to Lance!

If you know Lance Mannion, you know he likes to send post cards.  Even if you don’t know him but you’ve read this post, you know he likes to send post cards

Well I don’t know how many of us there are, but I count myself among the lucky.  Every year I receive a card from Lance, at least one, usually from Cape Cod.  This year was no exception.  I love the fact that he takes a few minutes out of his summer vacation, as if he has nothing better to do on Cape Cod, writes a personal message, then actually sends the thing off in the mail.  Who does that anymore? 

This year I could actually read what he wrote!  And I figure that since anyone handling this little piece of mail as it makes its way from Cape Cod, MA to Columbus, OH can read what he wrote, he shouldn’t mind if I share it with you.

Dear Connie,

Admit it.  You’re glad when Steve goes off to NH every summer and I know why you’re glad.  You’re glad because it means you’re the one who’s there to get my post cards.  My post cards the the highlight of everyone’s summer.  Aren’t they?  I should start charging you all for them.  This one would cost five dollars.

~ Mannion

This may indeed be the highlight of my summer Lance.  Thank you!  My husband’s off enjoying Lake Winnipesaukee and I’m here packing boxes and painting walls as we get ready to move to Iowa.  What a difference a little note scribbled on a card can make in the lives of some people.  Remember that folks.  Today I feel special because of one simple random act of kindness.  What have you done today to make someone feel special?

Here’s what I’m gonna do.  Knowing that Lance likes receiving post cards as much as he likes sending them…

"In fact, my wish is that when I get home from vacation 10 days from now
I’ll find my mailbox stuffed full of post cards from all around the
country and the world.  My snail mail address is PO Box 263, New Paltz,
NY 12561."

…I’m sending him this "blog" card via this post until I can get my hands on a real card.  Lance, this one’s for you.

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(Photo taken a couple of years ago of my son Ross and I on a jet ski on a beautiful summer day on Lake Winnipesaukee, NH.  We’re waving – to Lance of course.)

Makin' Whoopee on the Planet of the Blind

Do people do that on the Planet of the Blind?  You know – have sex?

Zephyr, the Arthritic Young Thing is hosting the next Disability Blog Carnival (July 26th) and she has chosen "let’s talk about sex, babee" as her theme. 

Steve is currently in seclusion (working on a novel) in our little cabin on Rattlesnake Island in Lake Winnipesaukee, NH.  His ability to e-mail is severely limited and so the best I can do for now is submit the following excerpt from his first memoir Planet of the Blind

Years ago, as a college student in Geneva, NY, Steve looses his virginity to Bettina…(and no, I am not Bettina.  This was before my time.)  Be advised, this will undoubtedly change the PG rating this blog was recently given!

~ Connie

An excerpt from Planet of the Blind by Stephen Kuusisto (Bantam Doubleday Dell Publishing Group, Inc. 1998)….

Continue reading “Makin' Whoopee on the Planet of the Blind”

Let's give Disabled Soapbox a boost shall we?

We just discovered Susan’s blog called Disabled Soapbox.  Here’s what she has to say about her brand new blog:

"I’m told I hog the soapbox so often, I decided to create my own I can
hog without apology – feel free to join me- there’s room for more."

Let’s show her some love shall we?

BOOST IT! Forward… This is our attempt to  give a blog a boost by "paying it forward"…
Blog_boost_3_3 You can support this effort by visiting the referenced blog and if you like what you see (we’re assuming you will) perhaps you too
can give it a BOOST!  This might be a new blog that could use a BOOST!
Or it might be a blog with many readers that just happens to be new to
us, therefore we’re not sure you’ve seen it.  Or, we might just BOOST!
a blog because we like a post.

~ Connie

Henry Winkler on DisAbility News & Views Radio Show

Thanks to Monica Moshenko for this tidbit: 

Soon to be interviewed is Henry Winkler, actor, producer, director and author whose work has won the attention of audiences and critics worldwide. 

"In 2003, Henry began writing a series of children books with his
partner Lin Oliver for Penguin Putnam Publisher, entitled, Hank Zipzer:
The World’s Greatest Underachiever. Inspired by the true life
experiences of Henry Winkler, whose undiagnosed dyslexia made him a
classic childhood underachiever, the Hank Zipzer series is about the
high-spirited and funny adventures of a boy with learning differences.
The first eight books of the series have sold over a million copies
nationwide."  Read more here for info on this and other fascinating interviews…

Did you know that –

DisAbility
News & Views Radio Show

is a proud recipient
of the
 

2005
Achievement Award for Public Awareness

by the

New York State

Development
Disabilities Planning Council

You should visit "The House Next Door"

We’veBlog_boost_4 Been BOOSTED! by The House Next Door!
This is to say thank you to the host/hostess of a blog  that paid us
some attention and in so doing gave us a statistical boost, large or
small.  We’re hoping that the readers of our Been BOOSTED! post will
stop by your blog to review you as "the source", thereby giving you a
boost. (Not that you need it!)

Thank you to Keith Uhlich for including a link to us in his post Links for the Day.  Check out his other links, one of which is titled "Vermont town considers banning nudity"…  We’ve been BOOSTED! by Keith before and because he and his co-contributers get thousands of visits a day, we tend to notice the increase in traffic on this humble little blog. 

As Steve would say "we’re not worthy"….