The Deleterious Effects of Memory

Today I had a lovely and lively lunch with two professors from Grinnell College and together we discussed among other things the ways in which memory must be understood in broader terms as an active engagement of the past and the present–much in the manner of mythological intelligence. WE were thinking of this along the lines of recent theoretical work in autism and with the associated sense that autistic people remember things not merely as “the past” but they see that past as static and very much a part of the present. This was a smart conversation and then as my friends drove away I thought in a more low comedic fashion about all the dreadful junk that’s stored in my memory banks (and yours too I may venture) and I remembered the horrible visage of the 1950’s TV humanoid figure known as Speedy Alka Seltzer. He was a dancing plasticine boy with an oversized curl of plasticine hair that fell over his bulbous forehead; he had an Alka Seltzer tablet for a torso and another tablet poised atop his immense head–so that it resembled a sailor’s hat. He was a dreadful apparition then and now and if I was possessed of a sharper memory I might never be able to put this little rascal out of mind. I’m glad sometimes that I’m not as smart as my friends who have autism. I can forget Speedy Alka Seltzer for moments. I can hum to myself something from the Tales of Hoffman instead. One may suggest these are the same thing. I can’t say.I could however use an Alka Seltzer right about now.

 

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Skinny Arms, No Tattoos Please

 

Yesterday I wrote about being stuck at a railway crossing and how I was unable to proceed with my destined rounds. I pointed out that there was a tattoo parlor on my side of the tracksand I opined that I’m too sensitive to get a tattoo. My friend Bill Peace wrote to say that he has a tattoo and with the exception of the chest area getting a tattoo isn’t  necessarily all that painful. So I wrote him “back” and added that if truth will out, the problem for me isn’t the pain its the fact that I have these really skinny arms–why my arms are so skinny that Popeye’s girlfriend Olive Oyl looks like Sy Stallone by comparison. This is true. It doesn’t matter whether I lift weights, swim long distances, carry variorum editions of Victorian novels up long flights of stairs–nothing makes my arms thicker than those bread sticks you see at the Olive Garden. That by the way is the second time I’ve typed the word “olive” and that must mean something but I’m not sufficiently well read on the significance of fruits and vegetables in the unconscious. D.H. Lawrence would probably say that this is a feminine symbol but I don’t know. But I do have pitiful arms and this is all the more amusing because I have a huge and I do mean advanced upper body. I look like an opera singer in the chest region. Once while being rushed via ambulance   to the emergency room because they thought I was having a heart attack (though this turned out not to be the case thank goodness) the EMT looked at me there on the bouncing gurney and said: “Jeez, I wish I had “pecs” like yours.” So there it is: I can’t get a tattoo on my arm because the only thing they could put there would be puny and unheraldic, a gnat or some kind of wormy thing and who wants that on his or her arm? Bar Sinister: an earthworm with the Latin motto: “Don’t Step on Me”? I think not. Meantime Bill has written to say that he too has skinny arms etc. but I don’t believe him. I think he may have thin arms as he attests but when we get together we shall have to roll up our sleeves for a contest in the pitiable biceps  department. I’m just sayin’.

 

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Applause: Dr. Sanjay Gupta is a Good Pick

If you're a person with a disability or you're a family member or friend of a pwd I think you can be heartened by the selection of  Dr. Sanjay Gupta to become the new Surgeon General. I say this largely because my friends D.J. and Ralph Savarese appeared last spring on Dr. Gupta's CNN television program and discussed with him the subjects of autism and the associated dynamics of human identity and personal dignity. Dr. Gupta treated these two advocates for people with autism with intelligence and the interview represents one of the best examples of media coverage of autism and disability that I know of.

Americans are by nature curious people. We have a spirit of inquiry in this country that assures we will be able, eventually, to rid ourselves of our equally strong penchant for knee jerk assumptions. The latter are a coefficient of Puritanism–unbridled religiosity makes for the American habit of adopting ideas through the marriage of superstition and a herd mentality.The best book on this subject is the classic study Anti Intellectualism in American Life by Richard Hofstadter.

When the subject is disability its often the case that even smart people in the media will comport themselves with Victorian sentimentality or flat out dunder-headedness. I know something about this on a personal level having been the subject of two lousy interviews on Dateline and Oprah.

Dr. Gupta demonstrated in the interview with D.J. and Ralph respect for people with autism and a strong sense of their respective intellectual gifts. Dr. Gupta is sufficiently curious about the complexities of disabilities to be potentially the first Surgeon General to understand that pwds are important contributors to our nation's life rather than representing merely some kind of outworn social burden.  

  

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Iowa City

So here in this corn town, this little prairie village where the railroad still carries tens upon thousands of tons of corn sweeteners every month; here where poets and novelists, writers of nonfiction,traffickers in translation–where we all meet and scribble; here you can find your way forward on street or sidewalked blocked by parked trains. And not just once in awhile but on a daily basis. Today I was on my way to a doctor appointment and not for the first time when headed to this establishment I found my path blocked by a freight train.

The locals are used to this. They are philosophical about the matter. If you don’t get where you’re going then it wasn’t meant to be.

I’ve stood at the train crossing for up to 40 minutes waiting for the damned train to move but I haven’t had any luck. I imagine as I’m standing there, blind, with a dog, stuck at a railroad crossing beside a parked train that some engineer half a mile up the line sees me standing there and that he feels a sense of power. “Look at that poor slob trying to get to his psychiatrist’s office. Hahahaha!”

The spot where I’m routinely stuck is adjacent to a tattoo parlor and I’ve thought about going in for some body art while waiting for the Rock Island Line to haul its ethanol and whatnot up the line.

But I don’t like pain. No one can assure me that tattoos aren’t painful.

IN the end I always call the shrink’s office and tell them that once again I’m stuck at the north side of the railroad crossing.

The receptionist is familiar with this scenario. Apparently lots of their patients can’t make their “talking cures” because Casey Jones is on his lunch break.

I’ve tried to schedule my appointments at differing times but Casey Jones always seems to know when I’m on my way. Far ahead I can hear the bells and then the deep and resigned klaxon of the locomotive.

Once again Casey will have his cigarette and I will contemplate a tattoo before giving up and turning around and walking back to something, anything more productive.

This is the Zen of a prairie town. People waiting. Things still happening on 19th century time. All commerce or mental health stops because now there’s a train.

 

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Vote Early and, Etc.

We at the “Sorrow and Pity Department” are pleased to have selected Blue Girl as our favorite online diarist for indeed her plangent, bosky prose (leavened with the tears of Sofia) daily marks the path to the sinister unconscious. We recall James Joyce’s apt phrase: “He was Jung and Freudened.” Her daily wil-o-the-wisp catechisms of domestic terror and its unforeseeable   joys keep us at the S and P department in a constant state of playpen howlings. Why, we read Blue’s posts and shake our slats. We toss our rattles. We—well, never mind. As Cicero once said: “There’s only so much pity to go around.” (Cicero by the way is a nickname. Cici is Roman for garbanzo bean. The man had a nose like a bean and wags called him Cicero which meant “bean shnoz” and you can look it up. Talk about S & P. The poor sod. And we made that quote up. We’re always doing that over here. If we were real bastards we’d have translated that into Latin for the full effect. Still for all our reprobate hobbies we do have what Oscar Wilde used to call “taste” and we therefore, by virtue of the power and authority invested in the venerable traditions  of S & P are pleased to give Blue Girl not only our vote (which we shall do as soon as we can escape the pen) but also this lovely Waterford crystal sling shot which she can display atop the TV set that won’t go digital no matter what apparatus one is tricked into buying. As another sage philosopher (who we are making up) once said: “Pity is the maiden of the dropped mitten, sorrow is the other mitten.” Ohio people tend to understand this we’re told.

 

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Disability, Higher Education, and the Culture of Contemporary College Administration

 

A friend (who is a professor with a disability) writes that he’s pessimistic about the current status of students with disabilities at our nation’s campuses, noting the alarming trend by administrators to underfund disability support services while the numbers of students with physical and learning disabilities continues to grow. He points to undereducated faculty who, in the absence of reliable information about the varieties of learning disabilities or the accommodations that should be afforded grow impatient, even dismissive of LD students and “pass them off” to the campus writing center with no effort made to engage or work with these students.

What’s emerging is a Mad Hatter’s world of signs that mean nothing and a paternalistic sequence of discredited and dishonest affirmations about the equal access that’s afforded to students with disabilities

I know more than a little bit about college administration having grown up in a household that was entirely in the service of my father’s two college presidencies. I remember that my father pushed hard in 1969   for the development of African Studies at the State University of New York at Albany. It’s easy to say that progressive ideas were simple in those days but in fact a dollar per dollar analysis of budgets then and now shows that today’s universities are possessed of deeper pockets than their 1960’s counterparts.

What has changed? The administration of higher education is now modeled in large part on the American corporate business model of the 1980’s: a silo management of budgets that invests less and less into the standing architectures of learning (or in the case of the corporate model in the business of R & D( while saving money as a pure asset.

I am not entirely pessimistic about the direction of higher ed when it comes to disability but I’m very aware that the current economic downturn makes it easier for administrators who don’t see the benefits of growing an organic citizenship of disability to ignore the potential for imagination and ignore the opportunities to do something exciting.

Supporting disabled students and novel curricula and pedagogy is an enterprise that bodes well for establishing the relevance of post-secondary education in a society where 1 in 4.5 citizens is understood to have a disability and in which the discretionary income of families affected by disability is estimated to be in the hundreds of millions of dollars.

The schools that make hay with this cultural turn of events will be rewarded by alumni support that will easily exceed the meager piggy bank dreams of administrative bean counters.

The universities and colleges that hear this message and truly act on it will be richly rewarded both in their intellectual enterprises and in their drives to stand as models of cultural opportunity.

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Playing Pooh Sticks

I was talking with my pal Lance the other day and we were discussing the joys of playing Pooh Sticks the game from A.A. Milne’s fictional world devoted to Winnie the Pooh. I was put in mind of the game while reading a new biography of John Lennon who apparently also loved the game well into his adulthood. Perhaps there’s a hidden message somewhere in the song “Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds”? Who knows? I wonder if playing Pooh’s favorite game is different when one is taking L.S.D.? Well of course it is. How silly of me.

I grew up in rural New England in the last days of what used to be free spirited childhood, a matter that many people in my age group (Baby Boomers born in the mid 1950’s) generally wax nostalgic about. We were sent out into the soggy or brilliant days by mothers who didn’t expect to see us again until twilight.

Pooh Sticks was a good game. Standing on the bridge and watching torn branches disappear and reappear beneath our feet was a heck of a pastime.

One of my New Year’s resolutions is to play Pooh Sticks when spring arrives. 

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Wind Me Up

I recently discovered the Victor Victrola Homepagewhile browsing and I want to thank its creator Paul Edie for his selfless love of old phonographs bearing the Victor name and also point out that he is a supporter of Recording for the Blind and Dyslexic otherwise known as RFB&D.

In my memoir Eavesdropping I describe my early childhood experiences playing alone in my grandmother’s attic in New Hampshire where I listened to a Victrola and discovered the voice of Enrico Caruso. Later in the book I relate how I made my way to Ocean City in Brooklyn to visit the The Enrico Caruso Museum of America.

There are subrosa worlds  of collectors in every sphere of life but I think true lovers of the manual, pre-electric gramophone  are more than mere collectors or habitues of private guilds: we are believers in a remarkable sound, the sound of the human voice captured without electric microphones or any kind of sophisticated wizardry. Because all of Enrico Caruso’s recordings were made for the phonograph and were recorded before the invention of the electric microphone there is a three dimensional quality to the sound of Caruso’s voice that no digital or analog recording of later tenors has ever achieved.

For my money the greatest high C ever sung occurs in Caruso’s recording of the aria Salut Demeure chaste et pure  from Faust.

Thank you Mr. Edie for your devotion to the Victrola and for supporting Recording for the   Blind and Dyslexic.

Both have made great portions of my inner life possible.

Even if you’re not interested in wind up gramophones I think you will find Mr. Edie’s site well worth visiting.

 

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Ableism Casts A Library Pallor Yet Again

Over at James Wolcott’s blog one can read an assessment of Michael Hoffman’s review of the Robert Lowell-Elizabeth Bishop  letters at Poetry magazine. Mr. Wolcott’s view, which echoes Mr. Hoffman’s is that Lowell was a clumsy, plodding reader of literature–a fact that’s according to Wolcott even reflected in the poet’s graniticand dull face. In turn Wolcott quotes at length from the respective letters  of the two poets revealing that Bishop was more adventurous both in her reading and in her travels. By comparison Lowell appears more provincial to be sure. His quotidian reading is that of a well educated schoolboy at Choate .

Michael Hoffman writing in the January issue of Poetry compares Mr. Lowell to a houseplant when his reading habits and prose are considered alongside Bishop’s broader and livelier epistolary persona.

Both Wolcott and Hoffman fail to take any note of the fact that Mr. Lowell was profoundly, nay, severely disabled and in turn his lifelong struggle with mental illness kept him constatnly in a state of quasi-supervised and medicated agony.

Perhaps this is funny stuff, a privileged absentia of empathy rendered as aesthetic judgment. Any excuse for a skewering of a once relevant and widely read poet is apparently fair game in an era when erudite literary criticism is hard to find. Why not attack a disabled human being for the sheer easy decadence of the  enterprise? Why its hardly work at all.

I like these two writers but I should say here without reservation that ableism is still widely practiced in  literature departments and in the press. The idea that progressive thinkers might be more sensitive to disability is fictional–most of the progressive cast remains poorly exposed to disability or disability history as a matter of cultural and political concern.

My friend Lennard Davis who is one of the leading scholars in the area of Disability Studies has observed that the diversity minded folks in higher education are often opposed to including disability as a form of human diversity in academic culture. Lenny explains this peculiar circumstance in his book Bending Over Backwards, a collection of essays about disability and culture. Here’s a quote:

“Indeed, in multicultural curriculum discussions, disability is often struck off the list of required alterities because it is seen as degrading or watering down the integrity of identities. While most faculty would vote for a requirement that African American or Latino or Asian American novels should be read in the university, few would mandate the reading of novels about people with disabilities. A cursory glance at books on diversity and identity shows an almost total absence of disability issues. The extent to which people with disabilities are excluded from the progressive academic agenda is sobering, and the use of ableist language on the part of critics and scholars who routinely turn a “deaf ear” or find a point “lame” or a political act “crippling” is shocking to anyone who is even vaguely aware of the way language is implicated in discrimination and exclusion.”

This is just the point: both Wolcott and Hoffman deride Lowell for his symptoms and do so with a bonhomie that’s essentially inexcusable.

I like Poetry magazine. Why golly one of my poems is even included in their “best of” anthology that’s culled from their first  75years of publishing. But ableism is real, all too easy, and alas its just where Lenny Davis says it is: in our midst.

 

Steve Kuusisto

Professor of Literature

The University of Iowa

Stephen-kuusisto@uiowa.edu

My Last Conversation with My Dad

 

Lance Mannionis writing a post today (or so he tells me, the rascal) which explains that everything he knows about the great depression comes from having watched The Three Stooges (presumably in childhood, but you never know with Lance, I mean he “did” go to graduate school in English so one can’t assume anything about his viewing habits).

This reminds me that my last phone call with my dad produced the revelation that when he was in high school he lied to his mother, asserting that he was going to the public library when in fact he snuck off to a vaudeville theater to see a live show starring The Three Stooges.

This was all the more delightful for me because my dad was a college president and a Harvard Ph.D. and as if that wasn’t enough he was a pastor’s kid having grown up with his devout Finnish parents who in turn devoted their lives to preaching and shoring up the Finnish Lutheran church.

The news that my dad had snuck off to see Moe, Curly and Larry conking one another over the heads in a dingy Boston music hall was entirely wonderful. I felt such a sense of kinship with him just then.

The subject of “The Stooges” had come up because I was telling my dad  about my meager domestic threat to introduce my stepson Ross to “the Stooges’ work” if my wife Connie didn’t acede to  some paltry household opinion or other. Connie would always say: “You wouldn’t do such a thing would you? I thought I’d married a good man, etc.”

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