Disability and the Spring Birds

There is no easy way to describe birds though poets have tried throughout human history. The essential reason that birds cannot be described is that we see them always as metaphors, which is a problem if what you want is the art of the bird, the essence of birdness. So we write of the bird as spirit. Even our tribal ancestors did so. A famous Ojibway poem describes feeling sorry for oneself—until the narrator announces that all the while he is being carried across the sky on great wings. We understand the bird as a symbolic coefficient of mind and wish. But Lord help you if you try to put one in words.

I was in mind of this early today when walking with my guide dog Nira, and owing to recent eye surgeries, I was able to discern a very large, startled goose corkscrew into the air from its hiding place beneath a foot bridge. All feathers and ligatures, muscle memory and atavistic spasms it was. The bird was alive and ungainly and improbable and offered the only kind of beauty I am attracted to. And of course the bird had been asleep and then it was alive like a sentient bee hive. And because I was walking and properly meditative I saw that my blindness and the bird’s unlikeliness as a figure for poetry were in fact the same thing. Poets can only write about the occasion of the bird. Even good poets must imagine a mise en scene wherein the bird is oddly remarkable, which is to say that they don’t write about the birds at all. Here is a poem by Wendell Berry that illustrates what I’m observing:

 

Sparrow

 

A sparrow is

His hunger organized.

Filled, he flies

Before he knows he’s going to.

And he dies by the same movement: filled

With himself, he goes

by the eye-quick

reflex of his flesh

out of sight,

leaving his perfect

absence without a thought.

 

Aha! You see my point of course. Birds are no more describable than the other imponderables which are instinctual, mysterious, accidental, risky, beyond the scope of will. In point of fact Wendell Berry’s terrific little poem about the sparrow is an accurate narrative of disabling dislocations—“eye quick”; “reflex of his flesh”; inchoate as vanishing itself.

All this because of a goose under a bridge, early morning in Iowa City.

Meantime one can only narrate disabilities by what they are as glimpses, like shadows flying through the trees.

 

S.K. 

0 thoughts on “Disability and the Spring Birds

  1. Effortless 3-dimensional movement just seems so nifty. When humans look at birds, we’re all quite disabled. Imagine sitting on a wire above Fatburger with all of your friends and family. We all take off, fly together in a large circle over Vermont & Hollywood Boulevards over the car wash, over the Starbucks, over the bank, over all the taxis and the buses and the trash. When we land back on the wire, two different pigeons are perched next to you now. You chat for a while or argue, and then everybody takes off again, flies in the same circle, lands, two new birds — just like shuffling cards — pretty much all day long. Can’t be too bad a life.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s